Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

Okay, I hold my hands up. I have been quite bad this last few weeks. I have totally neglected this blog and not written a single post since early July. I have also taken about a month to read a novel that I promised to read and review and that’s really not like me. I can only apologise.

I have been extremely busy with the WIP which is *almost* complete – or at least, as complete as I can make it without a professional looking it over and telling me where I’m going wrong. As you may recall from my last post, many, many moons ago, I have been working hard on my novel because it has to be with the RNA by the end of August. I have been under quite a bit of pressure as I work full time and also have family commitments and an imminent driving test, but I can’t say I have been desperate to leave my story behind.

Truth is, I have developed a rather undignified crush on my hero. I am not entirely sure if this is normal but I swear, sometimes he is all I can think about! I sit behind my desk at work, daydreaming about him and wondering what I can expect from him the next time I open my laptop and head off to visit him. He is becoming a little too real to me and I am almost done with him, which actually makes me very sad.

I  expect you’re shaking your head now and saying, “You’re quite right, it makes you very sad!”  and not in the miserable sense of the word either. More in a  “you total geek, get a grip and move on” kind of way. Well, look, this is new to me. He is my first hero and I suspect that he will always be the one that is dearest to me for that very reason. I have poured all my hopes and dreams onto him. He is the kind of man that I would love to have in my life but, sadly, I suspect he doesn’t exist.  

Truthfully, this post wasn’t even supposed to be about him but he’s just taken over here, too! I already have plans for my next novel and have written some preliminary scenes for it and I am very fond of my new hero, but right now I don’t love him and I am really hoping that I can grow to care about him as much as the current one.  I wonder if this is just me being a bit weird or do all writers feel this way? I mean, if I don’t fall in love with him, how can I expect a reader to? Right? Right? Dear God, please tell me I’m right!!

Anyway, I am currently going through the novel checking for anything that is superfluous and making sure that there are no unnecessary scenes or words and no excessively repeated phrases and that everything makes sense and there are no loose ends. I will then print off a copy and check it again before sending my firstborn out into the cruel world and try to forget all about it and get on with book two.

There are four in this series so I know I am going to meet my hero and heroine again. I just have to be very careful not to keep returning to them too much. The other books are not their story. Other characters have their lives to live after all…

So, I will spend the next week or two with my hero and try to relish every moment with him, then I will, I must, put him away and concentrate on my new characters until the novel comes back with its critique and I can start reworking it, trying to do him and my lovely heroine justice – but I know I will miss him and I will miss her, too. They have become so real to me and I feel sorry to let them go. 

That’s aside from the fact that I will have a professional opinion of my novel! Scared? Me? You bet your sweet life I’m scared. No one has ever read this before and it’s a truly terrifying prospect, but I have spent nearly two years of my life on this…time to let it fly the nest. I know I am going to feel like a nervous mother on her child’s first day at school. This is where I finally discover if writing is something I can actually do, or if, like my hero, it’s all been a rather lovely dream… 

Have a great week xx



4 thoughts on “Breaking Up Is Hard To Do

  1. I always fall in love with my heroes and I still have one in particular who I think I love above all others – shameful I know.

    Good luck with the report from the NWS, I remember being a nervous as anything the first time I sent something in but I had a lovely and very encouraging report.



  2. Thank you, Sue. It’s a terrifying prospect but I really want some good advice on where to take it next and how to make it the best it can be, and I know the NWS is an excellent place to go for that, so although I’m scared, I’m also looking forward to it, if you know what I mean. Glad to hear it’s not just me who falls in love with her heroes! I’m reassured that, although you have a favourite, you manage to love the others, too! Thanks so much for commenting x.


  3. Hi Sharon
    You’re definitely not alone in this. I’ve been a little in love with Finn (the hero of Beltane) for the past 3 years. The nice thing is that my friends who’ve read the book seem to love him too. We’re not the only ones though. Dorothy L Sayers is one of my favourite writers and the story goes that she was so in love with Lord Peter Wimsey that she wrote herself into the books as his love interest, Harriet Vane. Harriet is a crime writer who went to Oxford and has a rather interesting past – all of which are the same as Dorothy. So we’re in excellent company with this falling for our heros thing!
    I’ve now started my new book and, like you, I’m struggling with my new hero. He keeps trying to be too like Finn. I don’t know what I’m going to do with him!
    Really pleased to hear that you’re NWS submission has come together after all that editing. I know exactly how you feel about the report. It’s nearly five weeks since I handed mine over and I’m still waiting. Some days I feel pretty confident about it, other days I think it’s going to be a total disaster!


  4. Hi Alex.
    Love that story about Dorothy L Sayers. If it’s good enough for her and all that…! I’m so glad you feel the same way about your hero. I was beginning to worry. 🙂 Anyway, it’s made this editing process a lot more enjoyable!
    I am in the final stages and still cutting…too long still, but almost at the required length. Hopefully the feedback I get will point me in the right direction for what else can and must go to make it suitable to send to publishers (if it’s good enough, of course). I do have in the back of my mind that the report may come back with just six words. “Don’t give up the day job”! Mind you, it’s been fun and a terrific experience, whatever happens. I’m feeling a great sense of achievement just from finishing a whole novel, even if only two people ever get to read it and one of them thinks it’s pants. 🙂
    Good luck with your own report. Beltane sounds belting to me and I can’t wait to read it. Thanks so much for dropping by.


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